[Love] does not dishonor others,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
1 Corinthians 13:5
Yes, I've tried keeping records before but that is very counter-productive. When the Word hits me in the face, it humbles me and makes me try to be better for I am selfish and quick-tempered. Since my memory is not acute, I seem to forget my blow-ups but it is difficult to not notice the scars they have left on others. As the years have passed I've been able to be a little more in control but every day I depend more and more on God's working in me to accomplish that for me...I'm helpless to do it on my own and still---I lose it. Guilt is a troublesome partner.